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之前收到Marisol的信，一開始覺得奇怪，因為有什麼事ＭＳＮ就可以說，哪用的著寫信。第一封是Frida Kahlo的畫，因為知道我很喜歡這個墨西哥畫家，Marisol上課剛好介紹這畫家，他當場就拍下了。

已經將近四個禮拜了。但我越來越不在乎，再過不久它就會船過水無痕不留一點痕跡。


零六年在里昂的時候我終於開始跟台灣留學生相處，在大學裡，也有機會開始接觸到排山倒海的中華人名共和國國民。一開始對內地人總有些像毛衣上小毛球的不自在感，覺得他們耳朵不好或是嗓子很出色，所以講話總是很大聲。還有他們帶有一種現代矯做世界缺少的原始粗獷感，個性直來直往，豪不在意別人眼光的豪邁穿衣風格，其中就以及膝裙配涼鞋加肉色半筒絲襪最為出色。

有好長的一段時間沒有寫日記以及更新我個人的部落格，前幾個禮拜把在PC Home的部落格搬到PIXNET。有想過直接另築新巢，舊的日記就讓他隨風而去繼續留在很難用的明日報台，但瀏覽過一次又覺得很捨不得，大學時期的點點滴滴，有些不太開心的回憶，一些跟姐妹寫著玩的對話，看完後發現臉頰很酸，原來我一直咧嘴笑了很久。最後決定還是把這些拖油瓶一起搬過來吧！

Once upon a time there was a man in his middle age who felt uncomfortable about life and particulary about his professional situation. He watched out and found a good job as manager. He felt verry happy butthought he would need a break between the two jobs. When the break came closer he thought he had to do so many things he never had found time for before that the first month went over within a breath. For the second month he felt he had to start away, just not stay at home. He felt this time as a kind of last freedom before settling down. As he hadn’t enjoyed so much the time as student he kept back a feeling that he should make up for that lost period now. Within his dreams was to meet a young woman of that age who would give him for some moments his youth back - and so they could share youth and experience. So he started and the 4th day already he met a Taiwanese women. He took all his courage and asked her to come with him for dinner. She accepted and they had a wonderful evening. But then the young woman started away although he would so much have stayed with her some days - and even nights. When they mailed after that he was so happy to have met her and that she had allowed him to live his dream. For him all that was beyond any price. She started to wonder about his proposals and didn’t quite understand what he really wanted. But he couldn’t right answer that. He just tried to think ideas that they could meet for more than a dinner and that both parties would have their interest and win in the situation. Not to bless her, not to break her heart, not to tke her anything away against her will, give her the possibility to have her profit and to explain that for him the price of that dream was out of money - that was his occupation. So he wrote her that little story and hoped she would understand.

2005,

沒有把握二十七個年頭過去後
我會同羅明一樣垂淚啜起來
你可以再說一次那個故事給我聽嗎

隔天我回家時，歐賓儂 “先生”(立刻改口)問我晚上可不可以陪他去載另一個女孩，一個中國女孩。趙珏，大我兩歲，桂林人，唸藝術設計的，行李一個人帶了87公斤，全靠一句Monsieur, s’il vous plait就有人幫忙。大陸女孩真性情，大嗓門，語助詞特別多，動不動就說　“這挺搞笑的！”

她來的第一天晚上我們就聊到晚上一點多，他說我是江南姑娘，我問他什麼意思，

Sep.28

到法國已經是第三天了，比起第一天的倉皇，第二天的驚喜，第三天我已經對這個城市有些冷靜的熟悉。已經搭過2次公車，了解路線分佈跟方向，知道上車跟司機買票後還要有自知之明到後方的打洞機打卡，你不打卡把票留著重複使用也沒人管你，但是法國人行事作風就是講誠信的。還有司機根本就不知道他開駛經過的站名，所以自己要有把握一定會到目的地才上車。